Well it’s Christmas Eve and I can not tell you how anticlimactic it’s been… my goal was to make it through the entire day without stepping foot in a store but that didn’t happen.  I braved the crowds and went to the grocery store to pick up drinks for my family party tonight; It wasn’t nearly as bad as I thought it was going to be, maybe because it’s Sunday and I do live in a very conservative state. J

This year I’m alone for Christmas and it’s strange how different the holidays are when you don’t have someone to spend them with.  I’m not complaining, in fact everyone has gone out of their way to make me feel loved this year!  (My staff at work even all pitched in and got me a gift certificate to Victoria’s Secret so that I could by myself a new outfit or two.)  It’s just been very low key and I have to say that the change has been good for me.  The rest of the year has been so stressful that it’s been nice to not have much to deal with this season… no big plans, no parties no nothing.  It did dawn on me yesterday that I should have bought myself something to wrap and put under the tree, as Taylor is going to wonder why Mom has no presents this year.  LOL Oh well.  I did sort of prep him today that Mom wouldn’t be getting a lot.  He looked sad but said, that’s okay Mom, I’m sure NO ONE will forget your birthday! (My birthday is the 26^th, the day after.) Kids are so sweet!  I wouldn’t trade him for the world.

I bought my ex-husband a gift this year and am hoping that his girlfriend doesn’t throw a fit.  I addressed it to both of them, so hopefully she thinks it’s thoughtful and not that I have ulterior motives.  I also struggled as to what to get my Dad just like I do every year.  I finally settled on a Cross pen engraved with his first name.  I got my Step-Mother the same thing, only the store screwed up the engraving on hers.  Ha, well it’s the thought that counts right?  This was the year of personalization for me.  I bought 5 gifts that were personalized.  I figure, I love my name on everything, why wouldn’t someone else?  Plus that means they can’t return it or re-gift right?  I’m a dork I know.  I actually think that I did well this year for gifts; I ordered all but 3 things online and everything turned out really nice and all arrived on time… well except something I ordered on e-Bay.

I don’t really have a lot more to say except that things in my life seem to be settling down.  My last several posts were not at all up beat and I wanted folks to know that I AM doing well.  The depression is starting to lighten and I’ve been enjoying the holiday season in spite of being apart from my sweetheart.  So please, stop worrying about me and stop feeling sorry for me.  I’m alive, well, happy and looking forward to a successful New Year!  I’ll write more tomorrow…

Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night!